26/12/06

// feeling :: EXCITED
// prayer for :: smth private hahaha

I just got off the phone with Catherine. I was upset about something she had said earlier and I wanted to be frank with her. But all I can say about the conversation was:

WOW!

She told me many things and she even shared a parable from the Bible which I will later share.

I'm going through a very normal but difficult phase of my life, and I was also irritable about it. I let her know how I felt really frankly.

She told me to trust in God all the way, and to be willing to be properly discipled. And also to put aside this period for God ONLY.


This is the parable she shared:

Parable of the Ten Bridesmaids

Summary:
Ten bridesmaids were waiting for their bridegroom to come and take them home. They were so excited they couldn't sleep the night before, and got dressed for the occasion at dawn. They were also told that he would come anytime and to bring along their oil lamps in case he only came at night.

So they did as they were told. However, 5 of them got tired after all the waiting, and got sleepy. After awhile, the other 5 diligent bridesmaids realised that the oil of the lamp were running low. So they went to buy more oil.

The 5 lazy ones refused to go, wanting to stay and sleep.

Finally the bridegroom arrived. The 5 sleeping bridesmaids awoke, and realise that there was no more oil in the lamp. The light went out. The other 5 lifted the lamps to their faces, showing the bridesgroom how excited and beautiful they were.

Since it was dark, the groom only saw the 5 with the lamps, and took them home.

--Matthew 25:1-13


So basically we are all the bridesmaids, and Jesus is our bridegroom. We can either be among the diligent 5, or the lazy 5. We dont know when our calling will come, but if we dont prepare ourselves for it, we will miss it completely.

I was wow-ed when she shared this. I felt all loneliness being sapped away.

She also told me that if God can take care of my salvation and my spiritual growth, He will also take care of my emotional needs. And I can add that it includes my physical needs (money) :)

But after that talk, I really need to prioritize my focuses. Right now, God is all I will think about serving. God is all I will think about loving with all my heart. And of course my beloved cell group too.

Catherine's so anointed. I want to be like her! And not be like a small kid always running to her for advice and "counselling".

But. I've just realised that...physical age doesnt determine our spiritual age. All I care about is spiritual age actually. I thought becoming 18 will make me more mature. But in spiritual sense, I'm only 6 mths and 9 days old. Hardly a toddler yet!

But she told me that its not the period of time I'm in church that determines my spiritual health. Its my willingness to learn and be discipled that counts.

I've got SO MUCH to be thankful for, so much to be grateful for. God will indeed take care of me. Nothing is more assuring than that. I've got no other love anyway. Jesus is my first Love, and forever He will be.